Ok, I'm really back this time!!!

Greetings Love,

How is everybody doing? Fine I hope, Well Thanksgiving will be here soon, and I can't wait to eat some stuffing, I mean I want it right now, all that other food they can keep, but I only want some good ole stuffing...LOL

I never cooked a holiday meal, not once in my life, but since I'm in the process of moving into my own place, I will try and cook something for Christmas.

I want it to be something different, basically I'm tired of the same traditional holiday food, I think I may look and search for a good vegetarian holiday meal to prepare since I plan on becoming vegetarian soon.

My family and I will be moving to our new apartment on December 1st, and I can't wait! We were suppose to be or should have relocated to Atlanta this year, but something happen, which delayed our move. I haven't given up on the move totally, but we delayed it until Spring of 2011!!!

What my husband and I wanted to do was to continue staying with my mother until Spring of 2011, so that we can save money, and also to keep us from constantly moving, I got tons of books, and I'm not in the mood to keep transporting them books from location-to-location, I mean I don't really move them, my husband do, and he have a bad back, so it's not good for him either.

Ok, so my mother for half of this year were saying she wants her own place, and all that crap, but the thing was neither I or my husband were financially able to move out on our own yet.

We prayed that God would bless us with a full-time job, so that we could move into our own place, and we were going to be out, we couldn't wait. My mother is a depressed person, and she have like these crazy and different personalities that we can't deal with. My girlfriend said maybe she's Bipolar or something, I don't know, I just wanted to move.

Ok, so moving on, God have blessed me with a great job,and I love it!
I was like ok, we can move now honey,(that's what I told my hubby) I was referred by a family member about a basement apartment in her building, looked at the place, liked it, and we got it!

My mother is in the process of moving also, we are all sharing a 3-bedroom apt, and she's looking for a 2-bedroom and so am I, but guess what?

She haven't found a place yet, and we have to be out of this place by December the 5th, time is counting down!

Ok, since I would say.. around May of this year, she's been plaining to move, (my mother)and leave us here, she have packed, called people about apartments, and all that good stuff, but really... she never saved money to move, and we signed the lease again. Let me say this also, about once a year, she gets bored and wants to move, she will find something wrong with her apartment and will move. My grandmother say she's not stable...Anyway...

The thing with my mother is, when she's depressed, she wants to make everyone around her depressed as well. It worked on my husband, but not for me, I believe in God, and I have faith that he would pull us through, and he truely did!

My husband have been stressed already, because he wants to work, and be the provider for our family, he's been looking for a job for awhile, so that automatically made him depressed. God has blessed him with gifted hands, this man can repair, and build anything, so we are in the process of starting a small business, using his skills.

Like Madam C.J. Walker once said..."Don't sit down and wait for opportunities to come....Get up and make them"

Ok, back to what I was saying...My mother was thinking that she could move in with my grandmother & brother, while saving her money to move into her own place, but guess what? My grandmother don't want her there:-(.....So,

She looked at me, and said...Im'ma live with you until I find a place, and I looked at her and said...No you're not!!....Yall should have seen her face...LOL

Can yall understand why I said no? Again, half of this year she have been stressing about wanting her own place and wanting us to move out on our own, making it very stressful for us, and knowing damn well my husband and I have been trying to find jobs, and I was working part-time, paying half on just about everything I could, we provided our own food, and we cleaned up! I mean my husband did stuff for her, my brother wouldn't and still will not do, everything she asked him to do, he will do it! She talked bad about my husband to my brother, and my grandmother, she even told me, that she's moving, and my boys & I can come, but not my husband, it was a mess, but God pulled us through child, Amen to that people!

Now look at her, yall should see her (I wish you could see her) she is very depressed now, yall don't understand, how she stressed us out with her different personalities, her threating to move on us, and look who needs who now, you see God don't like ugly and he sure ain't crazy about pretty!

I know she's my mother, and I love her, and I would pray for her, but I can't live with her any more. I'm not depressed, and I don't want that spirit around me or my family.

Although, she is a Gemini, and I here that they have many personalities (sorry Gemini's) I can't deal with that, it's a energy drainer, and I'm not dealng with it!

So, let me ask you...

Would you allow your parent to move in with you for awhile, even though she/he basically made your life a living hell while living with her?

I want to hear from you...Talk 2 me!

Peace & Blessings,
Brown Sistah

What a Sunday?

My Sunday started out with me waking up at 8AM, I normally wake up or I set my clock to 7AM, but it didn't happen this morning, but that was ok, everyone was still asleep (thank God) I have to get up early, before everyone so I can spend time alone with God.

I say my prayers, I read 4 verses in my bible, sometimes I write in my journal or I'm writing a Dear God letter. I'm also reading The Purpose Driven book which is very good, sometimes I don't get a chance to do the journal writing because my children wake up.

I iron my clothes and my children clothes for church, they ate breakfast and we were out the door. I didn't eat because I'm on a week fast, from 6am-6pm, I might stretch it, I really don't no, but looking at my situation, I need to fast for 6months...LOL

Church service was over at 2:15pm, which ran over 1 hour and 15mins, which was fine with me, because I love my Paster and I love being in church.

I'm still working on my husband going, but he says he's not ready,ummm ok, I'm just going to keep praying for him and I'm guessing one day he will show up. My mother also, she makes so many excuses not to attend church, either she didn't have nothing to wear or don't feel good and when she throws that one in, I come home from church and she be up cussing people out.

I'm not making excuses, I'm going and my children are going also, I been slacking on my teen, he haven't been either, but I told him today, you going next Sunday, rather you like it or not.

I got home from church and I cooked, I fried some good ole chicken, I made green beans, and some garlic & herb potatoes. There were some lefted over biscuits from breakfast this morning and I heated them up and served them as well.

My husband full and so are my children and I must say...I am also!
You know what happens when we get full, you got it!

We get sleepy, but I didn't fall asleep, I cleaned my bedroom, put on some good ole clean sheets for my bed as well as my children, helped my 3rd grader with some home-work and I listen to him read.

At last..I got them ready for their bath, we added bubble bath and tons of toys!
I allowed then to find the under wear of their choice and also their pajamas and they was all set, now in my head they should be sleepy.....NOT!

It was 8:15pm when they got out of the bath tub and they asked or begged me to let them stay up for a little while longer, so I allowed them to stay up until 9pm, in which it's around that time now as I type this and guess what...


My 4yr old is sitting in the same chair with me, he always likes to sit wherever I'm sitting, mama spoil baby...lol....
And he fail asleep, he don't like to fall asleep alone, he always has to be by his mama. My 8yr old don't care, he's mama big baby, he don't need me to fall asleep, because he knows he's to big anyway and this little one (the 4yr old) just don't know he is about to start being a big boy also.

That's something I have to break him from, he's getting a older and he's old enough to be able to sleep without me near him.

I'm restless now and seeking some peaceful time, I'm on my way to take a hot and relaxing bubble bath myself, so I will talk 2 ya later!

Until next time,
Peace, Love, & Happiness!
Pretty Brown Sistah

I'm writing a play

Yes, just came up with the idea and it will be called "Turn it up Loud and Press Repeat"
and it's starting (drum rolls please)

My husband, Mr. Loud Mouth
and also starting...
My Mother, Ms. Repeat

He have a loud mouth and God knows she can repeat the same shit, over and over.
I'm not in the mood on this Sunday, Yall pray for me:-)


Peace & Blessings,
Brown Sistah